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I was wondering, why do some ppl had such good luck that everything goes in their way, while others had such bad luck that everyone's playing a joke on them?
I might not be the former kind, but neither do I want be the latter kind.
20th September 2009 is a special day for one of my family members. The reason is not because it's Hari Raya Puasa.
Yup it's my sis's wedding. Not much photos to share since it's all taken by professional photographers. It was pleasant throughout the wedding, only irritated by that question that most of the ppl I've met had been asking me - When's yours? -_-
Btw, below is their casual photoshoot 3 mths ago. Nice pic, nice music, nice environment.
Neil Sedaka - One Way Ticket to the Bluez
Choo, choo train chuggin' down the track
Gotta travel on, never comin' back
Oh, oh got a one way ticket to the blues
Bye, bye love my baby's leavin' me
Now lonely teardrops are all that I can see
Oh, oh got a one way ticket to the blues
*Gonna take a trip to lonesome town
Gonna stay at heartbreak hotel
A fool such as I that never learns
I cry a tear so well
Choo, choo train chuggin' down the track
Gotta travel on, never comin' back
Oh, oh got a one way ticket to the blues(x2)*
Repeat *
Oh, oh got a one way ticket to the blues
Just now while packing my things, I came across a small puzzle given by my piano teacher when I was in JC (or sec sch). It involves getting three small balls into 3 fixed holes. I remembered that I tried almost 1/2 hr getting these balls into the holes. Now, within minutes, I got all 3 balls in the holes.
At this instance I have a thought - while you get older, you gain more intelligence and knowledge. Therefore you have the abilities to get these balls into the same holes faster than before. You have the abilities for better judgments. It's no joke when others are saying that the elderly have the wisdom. That's the power of "maturity".
Unfortunately, maturity does bring disadvantages too. You are forced to gain knowledge on something that you rather don't know. These knowledge includes responsibilities, stress, unwillingness and sorrow. At this point, most people will want to return back to their childhood, when they can be as carefree and let the adults handle the problems.
I don't believe that there will be somebody with zero desires. Even if one desire is fulfilled, another pops up. It's never ending. Moreover, I think that a desire can still be "fulfilled" if you did nothing. i.e. when another stronger desire comes up, the former one will disappear by itself. It's the same actually. When u're young, u wish to grow up; when u're old, u wish to stay small. Pathetic, but maybe that's what keeps us moving on.
So what keeps me moving on?
Goodbye to my slacking period, and hello to my working life in a few days time. Currently I'm more worried about my job rather than excited. A whole new world, a whole new experience, a whole new level of stress, and a world where I can't escape like before. I must persevere no matter what. I have to be prepared for all of those.
Something that I thought I had discarded came back again. That's not the first time. I guess that's a periodic phenomenon only, but it only means that I did not break off from the chain completely. I guess only time will help me break off the never-ending chain completely. The question is when?
I pray that all is well. May God Bless You. Amen.
I had found a job. Good pay, good job, good prospects. Stress level confirm high, but that's all I've desired.:)
As days go by, my heart sank further down. The more resumes I sent, the more disappointed I am. The more news about my friends being employed, the more fear I accumulated. Ever since the last interview I had with certain company, questions kept bothering me: Am I moving in the wrong direction? Have I taken the wrong step in the past? What do I really want in life? Overall, my confidence level has been dropping.
So what to do next? I don't know